Daily at the mercy of anticipatory anxiety, hence...

illogical and irrational obsessive compulsive

exhausting rituals linkedin

with cognitive dissonance

(essentially unfounded worry

birthed courtesy far fetched circumstances)

exacts significant mental expense,

which logically and rationally

makes perfect figurative cents

nevertheless offers assigned therapist

Renee Cardone fits and starts increments

(as a licensed once in a lifetime talking head)
regarding helping yours truly,

i.e. mister re: man.

 

All thru mein kampf inferiority complex

analogous invisible muscular heft did flex,

quaking, hijacking, agonizing...
jinxed irrevocable hex
re: heredity did initially index
courtesy Boyce and Harriet,
who begat me
guaranteed, fixed, decreed...
courtesy accursed Lex

Lucifer mortal christened
Matthew Scott Harris – insinuated

jackknifed, kickstarted, limned,
machined, nixed, ordered... orifex
encompassing hardiest inscrutable

seminal entry point
penetrated zona pellucida, qua Rex
wrought flawed crown
faulty erroneous biological code,
within body electric mutation
fleshed out, I lament
analogous courtesy neophyte Unix
programmer wannabe, yes I hedge
to intimate biological event
upon impregnation sent
reproductive juices into action
miracle whipped processes
wielded unbeknownst advent,
whereby subsequent

cell division manifested,
albeit nine months later enfant
terrible asper:in,
this then buffer:in newborn gent

lo' within zygote,
every generic ingredient
already harbored yours truly
characteristic weaknesses full extent
unbeknownst until DNA blooper rent

birthed, thence as I developed absent

pronounceable kinks vis a vis
trademark characteristics became present

evinced thru behavioral, emotional,
interpersonal, neurological aberrations

 

costing me (lake dude...) woebegone descent
wretchedness faux forfeiting every moment

only recent (think today)
entire existence misspent

oddly enough even compromising
ability to serve meant
two daughters, (especially eldest)
decry horrible life pent
up with rage against human machine
referring to paternal birth parent,

whose pathetic example rent

asunder psyches linked with offspring

hence, I best ought to have
joined a convent (ha).

 

Twas really only late tete a tete,
In life of late bloomer

(scores of years ago with
Battle Axe and her henchwomen),

I realized fuller blown extent

house zing deplorable basket case...
Roman font typeface state
exhibiting absolute zero

scholastic quixotic poetic,
opportunistic, generic, athletic...
Homo sapien astride oblate

spheroid devoid of any
marketable skill doth resonate.