Tearing Growth

Never feeling good enough
feeling torn, and torn through
wanting to hide
wanting to shut it down
shut it out, my self

it hurts too much
the growth rips and rips
the story I had apart
broken shards litter the ground

waking to the pain 
I've been living in
reality is ruthless
I panic that I am trapped
so much I have lost

yet hope turns on a smile
a smile that widens with mine
and possibilities bloom in my chest
something never known
something never dreamed of

it fills my thoughts
dances around playfully
expanding within my body
creates new dreams
of what could be

if I broke free
of the chains in my mind
a peace would settle
maybe love I would find

the point is not
in how hard it would be
nor how long it will take
but that I am good enough
that I do deserve good things

by Sarah Flett / June 18, 2022