HELP

A soul full of rage, feeling as if it's me against the world
life is painful,but that's the point

It's silent here,all I can hear is 
tick tock of the clock and my heart beat,
I'm about to make the worst mistake of my life
but it's the best at the moment
the pain and tears comes from the heart

I seek for help but I don't know where to get it 
I'm drowning in my own self,I'm choking in my own spit
I'm suffocating in my own breath
it's too much to handle,I need help

I'm shaking, trembling,I'm in my own world
fighting the demons within
trying to escape from this mystery and pain
wishing a peace of mind,the pain I feel is too much for a poor soul like mine.

The nightmares,the horrific dreams,scaring  memories,
the sleepless nights,my ears can't function,my eyes can't see,my legs can't walk,my mouth is unable to utter,I'm giving up,I'm dying slowly
it's too painful to take it all in

I'm crying, shouting and calling for help,
but there is no one to help, everyone had there backs on me
the world is so cruel, people like us are left to deal with our own problem,it's busy to focus on us,on our mental stability
where can I find help?