Ambivalent emotions

Sometimes i seek for others attention

Sometimes just wanna hide

Sometimes gets the urge to tell what i feel

Sometimes likes to keep them inside

Sometimes try to be the main character

Sometimes i hate to even be a side character

Cant decide on what i want 

Its getting pretty hard to stay strong 

 Sometimes just wanna run away

Sometimes my heart tells me to stay

I dont really want to be people expectations

Sometimes i want them to feel that emotion

Sometimes i hate myself

Sometimes i hate those thoughts

Sometimes i like to be alone 

But i want someone to drag me out of that hole

These are some parts of mine 

Some know some observed but this is something i hate as well as want them to shine