Here I Am...

Here I am...

Where are you...?

Here I am, that's nothing new...

Here I am waiting patiently...

Now that's really something new...

Patience really is a virtue...

Here I am once again saying I don't wanna play your silly game...

Here I am trying to reach what most people are afraid to preach...

But here I am anyway waiting for the light to switch on...

But maybe I need to learn that bulbs already blown,

Long & strong gone...

Too is the place I should belong...

Here I am...

I don't understand where, when or why...?

Ask no questions, Tell no lies...

So I'm not gonna ask you again...

You'll only deflect, Twist me back into the self doubt that thanks to you still lingers about...

I'm the reason, I'm the cause...

I'm to blame over & over again...

I do nothing right, always so long & wrong...

I'm weak, You're strong...

Darkness is where I belong...

Here I am & can't seem to figure out where or who it's all about...?

Here I am, playing the guessing game & has hard as I try I cant seem to get up & leave...?

I'm confused by me & questioning my sanity, my integrity...

Everything that makes me, me is constantly confused with everything I see, trying so hard to figure it all out...

Here I am, Here Is where I shouldn't be... 

Where are you...?

Not here with me, not here for me...

Only here to annoy, destroy, mock, knock, block, casting grey all over my sky...

Here I am...

Denying my inner voice, Praying I'm wrong...

But knowing really what this confusing situation is all about...?

Your a narcissist & I'm a victim of you're narcissist abuse...  

Here I am... thirty years of knowing you, I didn't know you at all...

Fourteen Years with you... Although I'm still here...

It's been since moving in that now who you truly are is clear...