What if I Don't

“What If I Don’t”

(Tom Entrican, 7/19/22)

I believe all of the promises and grateful as I am

I often wonder if they come to everyone like me

Will it still be there for one who doesn’t give a damn?

And tries to hide his face from the One who let him be

When someone is so broken that their mind is never right

No matter how loud his screams or prayers he evokes

And sits alone there in the dark in tears most every night

And never feels he has a right, what if I don’t?

The promises are there for all but sometimes he is weak

And loses faith in himself, does he deserve at all

He wonders if the One he loves is listening when he speaks

Can He even see the man who’s broken from his fall?

If he thinks he can climb no more, so weary and afraid

No longer has control of all the happiness and hope

Who feels that he’s done nothing right, the price yet to be paid

Can he still claim his sanity, well what if I don’t?

Does comfort ever come to him who sits alone and cries?

Can he put together now what has so long been lost?

Would it even matter if he just gives up and dies?

For just a moment seeking peace whatever be the cost

Still in prayer relinquishing what little will is left

And in that hope of seeing Him no matter how remote

Knowing that his Lord wants for him that which is best

Knowing where he’ll go some day, but what if I don’t?