It happened one day...

I have felt the warmth and an uncontrolled feeling that rushed deep without comprehension a sense of love...she opened my heart when it was closed. I never expecting it to come like a blast tearing thought my senses...like a bullet ripping through my skin and nerves I was stunned in my tracks and my stomach didn't know what hit it, so powerful I felt sick...did I need a doctor or a hospital,  I felt scared I was vulnerable wide open to any attack to any return of negative commencement, being vulnerable to my deepest place my heart and soul. Feelings abound as I was open to a connection that was so new making me feel so incredible and exciting my emotions flared up like a hot blaze of extravagant joy. I felt ten times more alive. It happened so fast I was locked wide open...through those feelings felt so incredibly good I was smiling like a child at Christmas and the first sight of the tree presents abound. She didn't know that I had an overwhelming feeling of kismet - stricken.  I looked and sounded like a child unable to find a way to express something deep and natural...I sounded foolish and couldn't express the power of what I felt. How to express thousands of years of evolution that struck me in an instant and was it destine? I looked for acceptance, a mutual exuberant connection but, it was so hard to say what I felt in lieu of a friendship. There was so much more there and I could only foolishly mutter, my tongue spoke gibberish and my eyes gassed at something that god could have only made. My speech reveled a pattern I did not understand.  When I spoke it was sure to be taken for a crazy man. But it was my heart that expressed feelings my speech could surely not express. A smile was all it took and I was unabatedly resoundingly happy. Today a day of reckoning I share my expression of the sense of being with the wonder I have found. The expression of my feeling of wonder only brings a conscious expectance of a personal connection I have resoundingly found with a heartfelt happiness. I can only pronounce the wonder I have found and give my essence to another to show my feelings of likening. Precious is the feelings we share and it is what makes us human and alive with love.