Now Die

Fear and shame

How I loathe you

Now die

In the shadow of the cross of my Savior

At the foot of your master's defeat

10 plus years of letting you take the lead

So damn selfish 

I could be selfless 

Without you dictating my life

Rotting my faith and many mistakes were made

Which have now become a mindset

Lay your burdens to the ground 

Walk away and I will set you free

Father, may I never return to the cross

With intent of picking this weight up again

I made myself a victim 

12 feet deep a villain

And placed this iron mask upon my soul

Father , this prison door is open

I need only walk through

Father I'm running through

Fear and shame, I hope you rot

May my roots change from focusing on me to You

May comfort be a privilege not a right

May Your Spirit use more of me 

May I know forgiveness

And take its roots at heart

To pierce the dark night

Of souls who are like mine

Who long for fuller life

Through struggle You are faithful

So please guide my eyes, my hands, my heart

May I no longer be known as a blind guide

Help me live Your freedom until my last sunrise