Lost with no direction
All I ever wanted was to be perfection
Now I’m in a different section in life
Where everyday I need to be high as a kite
Where the pain runs as deep as a well
If you ask me, I was on the train to hell
Mirror mirror on the wall
couldn’t reflect a clear image with all the fog
the blurred lines I couldn’t erase
reality, I wasn’t ready to face
could I lose him forever? Or myself all together?
Couple lies and I risked it all
& boy oh boy was it a pretty hard fall
My love for him, myself and family
all suddenly seemed like a fantasy
struggling to find myself
and not be anybody else
walking thru life in my own shoes
but I can’t lie her Nike’s got better views
I wish life was YouTube and I could just unsubscribe or hide
the negative comments that go in and out my head
but everything doesn’t happen at the click of a button
and my life wasn’t given to me for nothing
I was away from the world, my soul& mind
damn I wish I could get back those good times
It was like having two left feet,
things would never be right
My heart felt like it missed every beat
Dead I felt inside
& out of a million things to do, I cried
Now I’m like Jet li’ tryna rush thru these hours tryna find the power
to find that light inside of me
That’s been buried beneath
all my flaws and faults
and blocked by my pessimistic thoughts
Maybe getting lost was a lesson
That staying true to yourself is your greatest blessing.
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Author:
Deeš§” (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: August 22nd, 2022 10:22
- Comment from author about the poem: This was in 2017 when the abuse in my relationship started and I just felt lost and stuck.
- Category: Unclassified
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Comments1
This made me feel things, and I'm sorry you had to go through that. Glad you made it out, to write this beauty.
thank you! This was a big leap for me to start publishing my poems but your comment made me happy I did!
Taking the first step is always the hardest, so congrats and don't stop taking risks.
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