Main Character Syndrome

main character syndrome

people miseducated me and it’s totally not my fault
someone recently told me i apologize too much
but that’s not what this is about

i only listen to movie scores and i journal obsessively
making narrative sense of every flu i catch
every snot-nosed dizzy-headed day I crave
linear healing of the body and the mind and the sense of fashion
circle patterns are so last summer

i have become a whole mirror cabinet
reflecting over and over and over again
and spelling it all out like tell don’t show
dotting the i and stopping the count

tell me tell me tell me to stop
tell me to get on with it
tell me to stop wasting away like a daisy on the saturdays
when the good men of the good times mow the goddamned good green lawn