Unfortunately

Unfortunately I am unavailable 

I am dealing with issues only time can heal

Carrying the weight of being a single parent of 2 young boys

Do you know how I feel?

One father might as well have just been a sperm donor while the other is sprung from the new love in his life 

Unfortunately I am unavailable 

Still feeling the pain, the devastation, the anguish of my BD, my coworker, and that man I called my friend taking parts of my heart as they bolted out of my life in about a 2 year span 

Unfortunately I am unavailable 

The hurt has caused me to put up walls too afraid to let the next man in

Brotha you gotta show me you’re worthy before I show you my… so for now I’m celibate until you can commit for a bit 

Unfortunately I am unavailable 

Working a dead end job that I hate just because the price is right so I’m trapped in my thoughts

 I have no idea what’s the next move 

I’m stuck going in this circular path that’s never ending no matter what I do to go in a different direction

 I always end up unavailable unfortunately