What Now

I am human

I am female

I am real

I feel pain

I feel fear

I cry

I laugh

I smile

Even If it is just pretend

My sadness consumes me

It brings me to my knees

I hate what he has done to me

I want to say i hate that i fell for him

But he has become the air that i breath

I no longer want to love him

But my heart won’t listen

I cry for him

But he just won’t listen

I am lost

I am scared

To live without him is just not fair