Secrets

What if I told you all of my deepest darkest secrets, would you still love me?

Because I know all of them and I stopped loving myself years ago

I could tell you my favorite color is blue but what if I told you that the only time I can look in the mirror is when my eyes are closed

I could tell you how I chose my dogs name or I can tell you how I blame myself for every bad thing that has ever happened to me

I could tell you about all of my favorite childhood memories or I could tell you all about the conversations that were only let out through therapy

I could tell you how much I love you but I don’t even know if that’s true 

I think if I told you all of the things you don't want to hear you would run the other way and I really don't blame you

I wish I could run away too

If I told you all of my secrets, my deepest darkest secrets, you wouldn’t still love me and that is why when you ask me these elementary questions I don’t stop you because you don’t really need to know the truth do you? 

All you need is to see is the person I portray and keep loving her, it’s much easier