Is it love?

I can live without joy;

Fell in love when I was a boy.

She had a hold on my heart,

She crushed it and tore me apart.

The music that stringed our hearts-

Now bleeds my ears, brings out tears.

I was a mess, you were the angel.

How things turned out, how’s it even real?

The untold secrets, reading from your eyes,

Can’t take anymore of your fucking lies.

Wish you just burned me or killed me-

Still I would’ve begged you to not leave me.

After what you’ve done, how I can I forget that.

You cheated with him, do you even regret that.

Nights after nights you lay awake in my arms.

Making love so good, agreed to your terms.

Never wished you bad, still I don’t.

Come to my dreams, it’s me you haunt.

Spending days doing smoke and dope.

Sometimes I wish to end it all with a rope.

Not gonna lie, didn’t think I’d break.

Now you can’t look at the person you made.

How can you ask me to move on?

Wasted so much love on you just so you can be gone.

Brighter days will come soon, fuck that shit.

It’s just me and myself in the pit.

Fighting, blaming-was it my fault?

Still trying to breathe after your assault.

Alone in my own mind, the place is a prison.

Kissed, fucked, hugged- wondering where the feeling’s gone.

It gets worse before it gets better.

Been crying my eyes out, why do I still care?