The Drowning Waves of time

It was all but myself two years ago-

There was nothing holding me from my thoughts,

Mistakes

Fears 

Only the wet, scratching sand keeping me at the seashore,

Of all the time I wanted to come to terms with my releasing thoughts of 

Growth 

Life 

And Change

I started to see time in a different light.

One I didn't want to see.

No one told me I would lose everything

My home 

My school

My life 

Leaving the place that started to love me,

but I never could.

But with every month, every day 

the time started to taunt me 

Tick , Tock, Tick, Tock

Every hour, every min, every second 

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock

I knew the waves would come,

I would lose everything,

I stayed in a place that tried to love me, but I never could

I wanted to stay, believe 

The time reminded me of when I will walk across the line,

Graduation 

I wasn't ready, I use to think I will be but not anymore 

Fear of decisions, 

Fear of life, 

Fear of change,

Time 

That's all I had

and as the waves started to drown around me 

Capturing me 

Sinking me

I came to my senses 

10 weeks and whatever days 

I would graduate 

Life has decided for me 

And as the waves wash over me

The steps I take on

The steps that glue me into the ocean floor,

I’ll make my way across the ocean

And I won't stop 

Time will only slow down

Tick, 

Tock, 

Tick, 

Tock

Walking across the sea plain

With nothing but dark blue cold water, swallowing my body

With nothing but a paper diploma and time in my head

Does time restart,

Or will I always be drowning in waves of time.