Red Flag

Time to take off the rose-tinted glasses

‘Coz all I’m seeing is red. 

Enough with the longing and dread.

‘Coz I’m learning to hate you as time passes.

Let’s start with what went wrong.

And honey, trust me this poem’s gonna be long.

I don’t mean to be rude, and I don’t mean to nag,

But your entire existence is a motherfuking red flag. 

You’re devoid of hopes and dreams when I met you. 

You saw yourself without future, and got no will to live.

But then I came and you saw what I was capable to give.

Even when you were nothing, I made myself believe in you. 

In your times of hesitation, I was your source of light.

Even with your negativity, I still didn’t hold you with spite. 

In your times of small victories, I was there rooting for you.

I was the one who believed you could make it through.

I believed in you with all my heart and soul. 

I was blinded by loving you unconditionally.

I tried to make you see and live life differently.

And the Lord knows how I tried to make you feel whole.

And despite all the positivity and all the love, 

I had a feeling that I’m someone you’re ashamed of.

You never thought of introducing me to your family and friends.

But I still persisted, and in hindsight it didn’t make sense. 

I felt like you hid me like a shameful secret.

And at times I wonder what did I do to deserve it? 

I guess I should have known, and at that time I didn’t want to admit 

That you only want me with you, but you didn’t wanna commit. 

But you’re not the only one with a red flag.

I’ve got outbursts, and that’s something I don’t brag.

But those outbursts were just frustrations

When you become negative, and face emotional stagnation. 

Honey, you’ve got faults and I’ve got mine. 

But if my red flag was too much for you to handle,

Then just go and light me up a candle.

Because with what I put up with you, I deserve a shrine. 

With all of the things said and done, 

You know the quality of my love is second to none.

Yet you chose to break me as if I were nothing.

And I was left all  alone crying.

I had to grow with the pain.

I had to let go and let my anger roam free. 

I had to open my eyes to truly see

The feeling you’re ever worth to get from me is disdain. 

As I prepare closing this, let me remind you

I WAS THE ONE WHO BELIEVED IN YOU. 

AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW, YOU OWE IT TO ME. 

YOU WOULDN’T BE WHERE YOU ARE WITHOUT ME.

Almost 4 years of being with you went down the drain.

I know I’ll be fine, I can deal with the pain. 

But let me tell you, as time heals and lifts up the smoke,

IT’S NOT, AND WILL NEVER BE MY JOB TO FIX WHAT YOU BROKE.