𓆩 MORNING AFTER 𓆪

They say the morning after is the worst

They say the light is too bright,

The sound and voices are too loud

The headache leaves them restless but unable to move

The stomachache leaves you glued to the floor of their bathroom

The ratchet smell of last night’s dinner and sweat burn their nostrils 

But still, they do it again

And again

And again

They never have enough

Just one more drink they say

Its a fun night with friends

Never again they say

They say it’s an addiction to the buzz

The high

The drinking

I never understood that

Until I realized a person can be my cheap alcohol

A person can make lights too bright

A person can make sounds and noises too loud

A person can leave me with headaches that leave me restless and unable to move

A person can leave me with stomach aches that leave me glued to the floor of my bathroom

A person can smell of last nights dinner and sweat that burn my nostril

And I would still find myself in their arms again

And again

And again

I know I will never have enough

This is the last time I tell my friends

Never again I say

I know I’m addicted to their touch

To the feelings 

To the pain

I understood now