How many people have made me fall apart on this bed?
You could be the only one to never do it;
you could be the last one to ever do it.
I can still feel you on my skin, the palm of my hands,
the kiss on my cheek, the wrists you never touched.
And if I feel you everywhere, won’t it rip me apart?
There are no pieces of you scattered in this room
but when I look out of the window at night
it is your face I see reflected back in the dark,
and no, I can’t say the words down the phone
but there’s echoes of you in every inch of this town
and in everything I do;
the divots in my chest that can be filled with only your face;
the house at the end of the street filled with memories that are not my own;
and in the daylight my love fades away until you are just a man again.
I took the train home for the first time since I left
and there was a girl standing behind her father,
and kids sitting on the platform floor giving a hi-five,
the windows with families playing and laughing,
and someone with the same hair as you,
eighty miles so full of lives, of strangers, of homes,
and I saw the clouds reflected in the water
which rippled under the light breeze
and I thought to myself - is this home?
Is home where I came from, or is it where I made it,
where I choose it to be?
The end of the journey or where it began -
and did I begin when I was born, at my first breath,
when I can remember the spring of childhood,
when I left and sowed the seeds alone for the first time?
Did I begin at the beginning or at the end?
If home could be in the arms of a lover
would I choose it to be?
- Author: hannah (Pseudonym) ( Offline)
- Published: November 18th, 2022 14:10
- Comment from author about the poem: I’ve been working on this one for a while, it’s more a compilation of snippets about the same feeling over several weeks. Moving out of your childhood home evokes some strange emotions and it has been a weird time but I’ve loved it so far :)
- Category: Reflection
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