The Man In My Head

The man in my head says,

“You have to be bold”

The man in my head says,

“You have to be strong”

The man in my head says,

“You have to be cold”

The man in my head says,

“You can’t be wrong; you have to belong”

But the man in my head is building walls in my mind

He’s sectioning it off, leaving me small and confined

It’s just,

Pain, Misery, Depression

See, the man in my head, everyday he shows to me

An image of a young leader, bathed in glory

And he says to me,

“This young, strong, brave man, the people’s hero, this is who you have to be”

But at the same time he tells me

“You’re not good enough, not man enough”

“You will never be good enough, you will never be that man that people believe in”

Weeks pass, then months, and suicidal thoughts are filling my brain,

Chaotic, complex, conflicting emotions, driving me insane

And the man in my head, he’s in there all the time

He’s planted in there, in the dark corners of my mind

And no whiskey, speed or weed will get him out

He’s my constant source of agony and doubt

He’s in here, messing with my head and making  shout

Help me

Please

help me.