A life that never was

Tears blur my vision, as I think of what's yet to come 

The fear of a tomorrow that might never be 

Living each day like it's my closing ceremony 

But yet hopeful that better days are yet to come 

I feel your spirit roam around me and I soon understand 

You are waiting for me to forgive myself

I apologize, my little love, I was too young to understand 

I wasn't ready for the love that I knew you deserved 

Maybe that's why I am now so scared of living 

I stole a life that was yet to be 

You only wanted me to protect you from this ugly world

But I was the one you needed protection from

I know you have forgiven me 

But what will it take to forgive myself 

Was my decision a selfish one 

I struggled with putting myself first for so long 

But when I finally did it was the wrong time 

Aww my dear daughter

Forgive your foolish mother, she was nothing but just a child 

If I could hold you in my arms, you would feel the guilt crawling on my skin 

I dare to open my eyes as reality is quite hopeful 

But who am I to be of good cheer when I failed to give you that life 

Stole your breath before you even took it 

I knew no better but to mourn your death in my sleep 

I promise in another lifetime, I will embrace you in the love I failed to give 

I promise in another lifetime, I will take my last breath telling you how much I'm sorry

How much I love you today forever and more 

But till then, I will take each day as it comes and cherish the memory of what never was 

As I prepare to see you again my dear daughter