Weeping Heart

I don't know if I'm foolish or why your on my mind 
I know it wrong but what I did was right so why 
Does my heart cry every Night and echo your name

Your not in my sight your not in my life 
But even so I still think about you and
 Why does it fill me with such a heavily Fright 

I dont understand the aching and quaking of my soul
I dont know why with everything in me I'm trying so hard to just let go
But my body my mind my soul was it always your goal

I dont understand I weep because I feel everything within me so deep
I know you spent months thinking about me and I'm not sure what it mean
I know the shine in your eyes seeing something new but I felt something 

I never wanted to walk away from you I wish I was strong enough
 to tell you these things and I wish I didn't feel these things either 
Your not mines to keep but I still want you in more then one way 

Why do I feel ashamed to have these feelings that are so deep
Why does my mind constantly remind me your something 
I could look at but never really  keep so my heart just sit there and forever weeps