Groundswell Of Emotional Blessedness

Ebullience exudes from mine every pore
courtesy festive mood in the air,

thus acknowledgment to the following:

 

thank you All Poetry, COSMOFUNNEL,
Facebook, Hello Poetry, My Poetic Side
PoetryNook, Poetry Soup, PoetryVibe
Tumblr, et cetera

anonymous global friends,
Romans countrymen/women

whether spring chickens

or old roosters or hens.

 

A network of cherished kinships allied
forged, and linkedin analogous
to union of groom and bride

(case in point yours truly

linkedin with the missus)
thru electronic bonds engender intrigue,
nonetheless unconditionally accept,
no matter I chide
self, and reference mine existence
as if...this mortal already died,
now more appreciative than ever,
cuz younger days witnessed

peers that did elide

me accompanied with relentless
teasing, snubbing, roasting
akin tubby kindled over a fireside,

thus...solitude shadowed me
as sole silhouette guide
peopled with books
to escape and hide

from so called "real"
webbed world, yet inside
this former grievous
lad through alienation,

emasculation, and isolation no joyride
valuing myself less than a pawn on
chessboard of life
envying extrovert as kingside
station depriving, insulating, and
ostracizing yours truly belied

to Matthew Scott Harris
marginally functioning, and denied
him camaraderie, dating, enjoying
female friendships due
to lack of confidence and pride

and at the cusp of

pubescence...a slow descending ride
(while donning a foghat)
into the hungry (anorexic)
maws of suicide,
which ideations hammer psyche,

analogous to ego getting piston
now aghast how I tried
(without success)

to disappear sundering

mine complex edifice
into the wide

abyss of nothingness, hence to treasure

those electronic connections,
perhaps...totally no more'n four score
(and seven years ago)
all told of unbeknown village people
comprising worthy chums,
sans human league roar

ring (okay pardon the hyperbole),
but letting this foo fighter explore

 

a greater range of interpersonal
(no matter virtual), but each
unnamed cyber buddy worth more
than simple rhyming galore
words express, some
or all those who sprung
from Earth, wind and fire,
viz cosmic toreador
this poet would their

physical presence adore,
who realizes genuine experienced love
second best option

loneliness I abhor,

nevertheless wistfulness

to communicate

thru the Internet...

finds me writing bonjour,

to random readers

 

familiar with literary nuances

of yours truly

within whose integrated circuits

central processing unit core

reasonable rhymes coalesce

as trademark décor

lapsing words to explore

his existential crisis

enduring seventeen years

 

subtracted from fourscore

orbitz athwart planet earth
in the balance as informed

Former Vice President
of the United States Albert Gore

his 1992 tree tease
at that time hardcore

revelations now Greta Thunberg
makes absolutely eloquently sure

Homo sapiens do not ignore.