Do I even want it?
Must I apologise?
Kiss yourself and close your eyes
I should want it.
I am normal sometimes
but I'm not all the time
Freaky, freaky me,
Find me, seek me, kill me.
I told you, I didn't want it
for the first time
You looked like you were about to cry.
I'm tired, don't want to fight,
so I just don't say yes
Just lay back & take it
I'd prefer it if you didn't do that.
Can we settle for a kiss instead?
I guess not.
Well, that's fine.
'Least I'll be normal
for once in my life.
I'm half-asleep, won't fake it.
Just remember to lay back,
and take it.
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Author:
Jared Nguyen (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This is about being Greysexual and having a partner who can't accept that. The mention of "being normal" points to most of the Ace spectrum, where they feel they must feel more sexual attraction to be considered normal or fit in. The partner in this story dislikes the thought of being rejected for sex, causing them to non-con them in their sleep. The speaker dislikes this, but the reason why most of the details & their objection don't appear is that they know they can't reject, it & because the speaker has tried their hardest to forget the events. This has happened so many times that the speaker has resorted to "lay back & take it" even so, it still affects them horribly.
- Category: Sad
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Comments1
The speaker sounds defeated. I'm sorry if you have experienced this. A lover should accept its partner's boundaries, and we must be critical of the people we love if they continously hurt us in our most sensitive moments. hope you are well friend.
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