Memory Problems (1-15-23 @11:46 pm )

I have memory problems. 

I can’t ever seem to remember

so I’ve never been able to reminisce. 

Yet unlike anything before, 

There you are, 

stuck in my head. 

It could be months, 

But I still remember 

your first hello 

to me. 

My hippocampus has a dilemma, 

The doctors don’t 

have a diagnosis

for me yet. 

I haven’t been able to 

collect little mementos 

of specific footsteps 

walking towards me, 

only yours. 

Your words are 

imprinted on my skin

like tattoos

as if I wrote them there, 

But what you speak is all I see. 

I have watched 

and can 

recall every way

and 

turn 

your smile turns into. 

I haven’t had those feelings of nostalgia, 

I haven’t had 

the luxury of

recalling the touch 

of someone’s skin, 

Someone's eyes, or the way 

they look at me, 

Not even specific places I’ve been with them. 

I haven’t, 

And I probably won’t ever, 

But you’re the exception.