Baneful brickbats begat grievous barrier

privy to learn yours truly harbors

traces of the masterful
impregnable prepubescent wall

still extant scads of decades since
complex edifice erected to force tall
adolescence - permanently leaving me,
(a poor buoy at sea) unmoored,
marooned, and furloughed ready for pall
bearers to spill soil upon my
then emaciated stick figure overall.

Courtesy anorexia nervosa,

an unlovely bag of bones
stripped of flesh,
sans unseen deadly invisible pathogens,
who valiantly tried to mothball,
and nearly succeeded, kneaded,
and deeded landfall,

when August parents aghast
at wits end be tiding,
halting, and ramming

an utter disgrace at kick/dodgeball

player with serious
game of life (thrown) off kelter and death,
begat fantasy to excel at athletics
the latter cleated toehold
unanimous decision to install

topnotch scorer anticipating
seeing his name plaque mounted
within glass encasement within guildhall,

faintly hearing inaudible teammates
praised showered, visited

head upon one, with grit and gall,
who clinched championship
wrathful excoriation against me
referee could not forestall,

who fumbled, kindled (as predicted)
loose tongues flaying hide with no rescue
brow beaten into pulp,

I could barely crawl
to escape being skewered

behind eight ball.

Thus the above "FAKE"
metaphor merely written to accentuate

self repudiation delivered
upon head of this defacto scapegoat
bullies endless taunts

bred snickering crowdsource to berate
besieging, jackknifing, and resulting
when old enough to query divine providence
questioning why biological happenstance

linkedin mature haploid male

and female germ cell united

in sexual reproduction

to form zygote and future nebbish,
namely writer of these words

triggering random chain of events
whereby a fertilized ovum courtesy mitosis,

(a type of cell division

resulting in two daughter cells

each having the same number

and kind of chromosomes
as the parent nucleus),

typical of ordinary tissue growth

such random genetic dice throw did create

genesis of yours truly

wrought cellular differentiation

implacable existentialism debate
asper my grant (migrant)
humph...pariah status
to learn social skills quite late,

and apathetically to marry and mate

despite ambivalence within my pate