Dragon

Shimmery scales writhing beneath the tarry surface

claws like talons that snatch me from the water's edge, falling from the ledge

no longer able to decipher reality from fantasy in this declining mentality

anxiety, jagged in my veins like broken glass

still curious to know I reach and meet teeth .. like pinpricks in my skin

spine tingling, the warmth mingling in my veins a temporary comfort

the taste of magic plagued

silent screams a vaporous thing devoid of sound

my old self whole nowhere to be found

my contemptuous respect for this dragon creature

the new wound in my soul looming like a reaper stalking its prey

I PRAY to a God I only hope hears me

to shatter the chains around my will

unallowed to change

oil-slick arms drag me under

the fire in my lungs lets me know I’m alive.. but numb

incapable of loving no one, nothing but the dragon before me

chasing it like a lucid dream

till the fever sets in and the chills ripple over my skin

like a raindrop in water, an echo of itself

bones breaking with no snap

your willingness to live a distant thought across the black surface

yet try as I might to put up a fight

to bridge this chasm within me

life and death both creations unto thee

lift the veil from my eyes to reveal the unclouded judgment

uncloak your fear, born and bred as a living thing

undulating in these unhallowed waters that sting

every wound of the dragon's doing

until you ask yourself...

was it worth it?

with this monster named addiction

I’m constantly under attack

I chased a dragon, and he chased me back