Forgiving Love!

As the early morning sun rays penetrate through the window pane upon my face, the feeling of the warmth cascades across the contours of my cheeks as I awake. The partial memory of a hazy dream seems to resonate as i stare into an empty and abandoned area where you once lay, becomes my reality once again that you chose not to compromise to fight and stay.

My mind continue to try to rationalize where and how did things begin to go astray, piecing together the conclusion that the one that i had so much love and admiration for; has completely and abruptly faded away.  A deep exhale deflates my chest, as i remember the great times we shared, the ever- lasting love and devotion we once declared.

Time seems to pause as my thoughts is left in the realm of suspension, which exposes my feeling and my inner soul; contemplating all that was and all that is; is no longer in my reach in the physical dimension. That loving smile you once displayed, the warmth and radiant touch you gave, not even the Promises of death do us part that we made.

So as mistakes were manifested in our world and the life we were building, lies; deceit and rotten reasoning embarked in the demise of many years of commitment and dedication, the investment of our lives and that wonderful gift of procreation. Unreasoning behavior and actions clouded the truth of our path, you decided to let go by focusing on the minute things you considered that was so bad, instead of remembering and seeing all of the many good and spectacular moments we unselfishly shared and had.

The sound of the words you spoke to me that day echoes in my mind over and over in a whispering tone, those words that struck me like a sharp piercing of a blade destroying the family i once considered my own. Your deflecting energy and overwhelming emotions showed your truth, that someone else has been prowling through your thoughts, mind, heart and body as you try to convince to me that your respect, love and purpose of me have elude.

As I sat and stared into your eyes as they glared, my body became weak as my mind began to prepared, for the disappointment and betrayal of the exiting matrimony we shared, that we was to be forever no matter of the affair. But yet you seem to have a over powering conviction to disavow all of the years of love, sweat and work that we put in our relationship, to experience or explore the other side of the fence, I guess you had a fantasy in your mind that the grass was greener on the other side.

Your eyes wide open, but yet your sight remain blind, not seeing a proud  man of value sitting right in front of you, because your mind was caught in a fanciful cloud. So now you decided to put it all to end that special thing we had and then, you left me utterly with a crushed heart and for someone that you called your friend!!! (I forgive you my love, I forgive you!) -Flip.