It is me and it has always been me

There is always a battle between two different personalities in me, sometimes their clash and fundamental incompatibility choke me but sometimes provoke me. One is benign and another is malignant. This chaos and grey area always led me to put myself in crazy situations sometimes intentionally and sometimes out of necessity but important is I survive them. As much as pain and suffering I can endure in my life due to my choices act like a catalyst to all the great stuff I experienced. I am grateful for all the experiences I had, and I don't regret anything, and I don’t blame anyone for anything. It is me and it has always been me. I am glad for whatever happened.