What Is a Friend?

I crash and I burun and I lie awake with my soul ready to take hanging on by a thread so I get baked to forget all the problems I had today...
I asked you once 
Now I asked you twice 
Don't make me think things I don't have to think all in my head cause you can't act like a real friend 
You wanted me I didn't want you then I came to damn I really want you too...
It was too late my chance flew over the gate he found a new blue eyed ride or die
Her and I are close, so I had to let him go.. Mrs. Blue eyes dosent want him why would she not want him? 
So much to love yet it hurts, meeting him was definitely a curse
In my head all day and night only wondering how I will survive I tell myself "you don't need him you just want him" but is it true?
I sit here today trying to stay strong with nothing to do but listen to songs 
I wish we could go back and forget the madness 
Should I let go of it? Move past it? 
Or
Stick to my word and leave if it dosent start to get better? Ive communicated more then I should
My nerves are now high and my world is now turned