What does being happy mean?

What does being happy mean?

This morning, I didn't want to get out of bed and start my day

I was mostly irritated by the idea of traveling for two hours to get to work

But I made it a habit to push through those feelings

And make myself comfortable by just doing my normal morning routine, waking up and trying to find positivity before I get to work

I listened to my favorite songs on the train

I watched how the sun slowly appeared

And enjoyed cycling instead of going by bus

I started setting up my workspace at work and started connecting with the people around me

And there it was: I fell into a flow of working from a connected and positive mental space.

I got some compliments from my colleagues and mostly enjoyed learning about and experiencing office life

On my way back home, I remembered how I felt in the morning

And noticed how happy and accomplished, lucky and grateful I felt at this moment

I was happy to go home and enjoy some free time

But this feeling made my day

And it made me realize that happiness doesn't exist

It's not that I woke up happy this morning

I just made myself happy

For the sake of me