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Where is happiness?
And when will it begin?
I'm so tired of feeling this sadness within.

Happiness where are you, and where did you go? 
I Miss the old days and our memories from when I knew you years ago. 

Will I ever get to feel you again? I wish 
You'd come back and help heal my pain. 

My emotions feel heavy I'm tired and drained. 
My family hate me, and my marriage is strained. 
 
There's no quick fix for this overwhelming feeling, 
I know I need to face myself which will be hard!
It's unappealing. 

I question my worthyness every day. 
yet still can't ignore what others might say. 

But I have to be here! 
I have children who need their Mum. So I keep plodding the daily grind whilst feeling so numb. 

I never wanted to be this useless, I had dreams I didn't reach so now I am left with my complaints and excuses. 

Where is my happiness and when did it end? One day I hope to find myself again, I miss you old friend.