Knight in the night

Just go, leave me alone once more
The pain inside has become undone
I feel everything yet nothing at all
Tears clouded just waiting to rain
A heart full of love yet so much suffering
Scared to love, scared to be broken again
Trust issues and fallen teardrops on tissues

There wasn't no blue skies and rainbows with a happy start in my life
Mostly silent tears and screaming into pillows
Suicide notes on crumbled papers on the floor
Monsters were every men ive known and continues to be every men unknown

Heart aches from past pains ive tried to bury deep within myself
Reminders that causes lightning flashes in my mind
Standing before my eyes is her, the girl i once wore as skin
Cut my wrist and bleed me dry, she never wanted to be alive
But i am and i carry her around with chains around my heart Slowly tearing it apart
A knight ive fought repeatedly alone in the dark
Empty soul, brain full of thoughts and a aching heart