Toxic Rancid control freak blues

It's Good Friday 2023

Sometimes I done get burned out and heartbroken

When a certain toxic rancid control freak knitpicks and verbally abuses me.

I'm a senior citizen of 69 pushing 70

Looking back on a thirteen year broadcast carreer

Controlled by "big fish in a little radio pond"

Justifying their financial and social status, good looks and narcicissm

To take advantage and exploit me.

This is nothing new

Throughout this lowly life that I lived

Throughout my school years in the 19060s and 70s

When I was mentally abused by a certain grade school principal's rhetoric

Bullied continually on the school bus because I am Catholic

And was seduced and molested by a Dayton psychologist

Hoping he would turn me into his teenaged homosexual lover

Which I refused to give consent to.

I was scared out of my wits

I kept it quiet for decades due to being bullied in high school..wishing I would call it quits

Falsely accused by my peers as the "queer" that I'm not

I'm just the son of struggling small farmer

Who also was made fun of and shunned by those

Who had a title, social status, and yes...money.

I met my wife in 1979

She too was bullied in high school by that same continual crime.

But some women take advantage of their husbands to this very day

I sometimes rant under my breath

...but by the same token , I forgive and still love her anyway.

As I carry my load of mental abuse on this Good Friday.

"Father forgive them, for they know not what they do."

-Jesus

JML 4/07/23