Never Here, Never There

All the shit you said means nothing now                      

I rage and frown and tell you to fuck off                              

Playing the song you loved                                        

The one we never wanted to end, yeah, that one

I thought you were the stars, and                                                  

I thought you were a song                                                      

And you said, "Love is torture"                                                        

And I tried to listen and understand                                            

But you know I'm as stubborn as they come                                              

As lonely as my addictions 

I feel the pain as I sleep                                                                    

How I said, "Never leave, stay here"                                              

And cried, Heaven is my only friend                                        

But it was never enough

And now I see myself, sucking his dick                                    

I am a God, smoking my cigarettes                                        

Between his legs                                                                            

I gag like a good little boy                                                        

Spitting like honey                                                                      

Nothing more than a stupid whore 

In my dreams we are together                                                

In my dreams I am never here, never there                                      

In my dreams we belong together                                              

In my dreams I am never here, never there.