Echoes

All I hear are my echoes, so I have learned to talk slow

I don’t always like to hear them, but what I say, goes.

The words of my echoes bounce off all of my walls,

When I hear all of my failures, my speech stalls.

Have you ever made a mistake? Please, a show of hands,

Both of mine are up, I usually ruin all of my plans.

How come the people in the back don’t have their hands up?

Oh, they are here to judge and do not have to show any of their stuff.

That is fine, I can tell you about me,

I bury myself sometimes, I only know defeat.

I have been knocked down but I stand on my feet,

My echoes are all around me, every mistake I repeat.

When does it end, will I ever learn to stop?

Maybe when I am at my bottom taking another loss.

I sought revenge but I heard when you do,

Go ahead and dig a grave, but dig it for two.

Seems like I am just a grave digger now,

Burying everyone I loved, let me show you how.

I said things out of my rage and my own anger,

I said things to them I wouldn’t even say to a stranger.

I was so caught up in all of my own pain,

They could say whatever they wanted, I would never hear a thing.

I spoke so loudly and would not use my ears,

All I hear are my echoes, they became my own fears.

Stop! Stop! Stop, wait just a minute,

My fears controlled me I have to admit it.

I raised both of my hands because I know who I am,

I take ownership of my mistakes so before you I can stand.

My mistakes no longer define who I am,

The echoes of my mistakes are like grains of sand.

Too many to count, too many to hold,

My mistakes left me feeling bitter and cold.

I gave all of my mistakes to Jesus and the cross,

I am starting to win from what before was another loss.

My echoes are all around me, always coming back they try,

I put them on mute because like the old me, that person died.

Still alive but with a whole new purpose,

Living a new life, my life is no longer worthless.

To what I once was, God gave new birth,

For my mistakes, one day, I will lie in the earth.

But as for you in the back, know I can see you,

Revenge is no longer wanted, I’m praying for you too.

Conviction comes to those who can be honest,

Submitting our mistakes to Him, we become the strongest.

My echoes still ring very loud and very clear,

I know my mistakes and I no longer have to fear.