Why still Alive by Abby Rose Wise

All I feel is pain.
I don't know why I am still alive.
All I want to be is alone.
I ask myself a lot of questions.
Why am I still alive?
I hate feeling like I am a disappointment.
Tired of feeling a mistake.
I am especially tired of making people disappointed.
I can't handle life anymore.
Why am I still alive?
I just want to be okay.
I just want to be happy.
Why do I have to feel this way?
Why can't I be gone?
O why am I still alive?
No one needs me.
I certainly don't need them.
I am just a disappointment.
Can't I be perfect like everybody else?
Why am I still alive in this damn world?
I just want to escape.
I want to find peace.
Mabe's death is peaceful.
Maybe nobody will notice that I am gone.
Maybe nobody will miss me if I am Gone.
Why am I such a fucking mistake.
I just want to go and have no pain.
I want to be okay.
Why can't nobody love me?
Why am I so unloved?
Why am I such a disappointment?
All I want is someone to love me.
All I want is not to be a nobody.
I just want to be okay.
Can't I have that?
I just want to have people understand me.
I don't want to be alone.
I don't want to feel like I am a mistake.
I don't want people to feel disappointed in me.
Nobody will understand my pain.
Maybe death is the answer.
I won't be suffering anymore.
I just want help but nobody gives it.
I just want to be loved.
I just want to be somebody.
My only and only question.
That can never be answered.
Why am I still alive?

You're still alive because YOU ARE LOVED,
By many here and especially by the Lord above,
You are meant to do something great,
To inspire others and erase the hate,
Lead by example and love no matter what,
Even though it's hard, follow your gut,
I love you Abby and you can count on it,
Follow your heart dear and tell the devil to git,
You're still alive because you are a very special girl,
So feel loved and go enjoy yourself give it a whirl,
Keep moving forward my dear and never give up,

Yup, I Feel The Same. Abby, You're The Greatest.
Rest Easy, Fellow Poet, I Consider U Both Friend & Family.
Insanity That Makes The Soul Shatter Don't Matter Because Of Our Heavenly Father, N Particular.
Sweeter, U Grow, As U Honor The Mantle Of Beautiful Survivor.
Clever Woman Warrior Your Pen Is Most Mighty.
Abby.
Lady, Extraordinary, Feel Proud As The Sunshine Highlights Your Sovereignty.
Happily, I Go My Way, Hoping I've Uplifted Your Spirits A Bit. Again, I Know Why I'm Still Alive..Why Still Alive.

abby never think you are the world's greatest mistake
in all you are and in all that you may be
you're just like any human being, feeling beaten and scared to death
you feel swallowed up and that darkness threatens to consume you.
But sweet abby hold out your hand,
and I will grab you.
ill hold you tight
and while you cry, Ill whisper, "it's going to be alright."

See what I mean Abby,here we are all a family of sorts,
Though no blood relation we have your back, of course,
We will support you through all of your feelings,
Hang in there dear, you will find healing,
Let's conquer Satan together, you I and the entire MPS family too,
Trust me girl, we got you