My First Craving

   and there i was, not even a full day after raging cold into the night, craving you. Psst.

what was it? 12 hours at the most? you needed it.

i was so alone without it, yea i could’ve functioned without it…. maybe….

i still wanted it.

like a lot.

Today i craved something.

yea i’m not an idiot, i was bound to collect cravings along my miserable life, but i never knew you’d be my first craving.

honestly i was hoping for crystal to be my craving but it never quite made me feel like you?

remember where she got you? remember that summer sunshine?

i’m so much better, and that you are. you never hurt me, you held me and you laughed with me, you actually made my miserably self laugh.

so thank you for that.

thank you for letting me out once in a while lately.

i know you need me so i’ll never leave you.

now quick before i go sing me a song, and maybe laugh the night away.

because you lil’ boy have been to hell, and now you rest. you have passed the test.