Trapped

I feel Like i'm locked up in my own body, I feel trapped without freedom, I feel lost without a map, I feel like drowning without water.  I wanna feel but my emotions are on a run, I wanna feel but the words won't escape, I wanna feel but I can't. I'm screaming out for help at  the bottom of the sea, waiting on someone to save me, save me from my thoughts, save me from my brain, save me from this box, save me from this black hole, save me from this sea, save me from myself. Days I go, wondering, wondering when will I be okay, wondering when it will get better, wondering if anything will change, wondering if it would even matter. Looking at the clock, as it moves slowly, time is fading, fading away from existence, fading away from reality, fading away from the pain floating away from emotions. I feel lost with nowhere to run, I feel lost with no place to call home, I feel lost with nowhere to go. I feel trapped in my own soul.