Sad poem for my cousin By Abby Rose Wise

You were my everything;
Now you're gone.
I don't have the strength
To carry on.

I loved you so much;
You were all I had;
Now my whole world
Is depressing and sad.

I'd like to start feeling
Other than blue,
But you were my everything,
What can I do?

Could you just be a memory?
Please?

I walk around in a daze...
my hollowed out interior
filled with smoky gloom,
choking off all joy.

If raindrops were tears
And it rained every day,
The rain couldn't wash
My heartache away.

Now that you're gone, I realize
How much you meant to me.

I miss the comfort of your sweet love,
Your absolute devotion;
Now I'm a fountain of endless tears,
A pool of sad emotion.

If only I had described to you
The joy you brought to me

I sleepwalk through each day;
I pray to heaven above,
Hoping you'll change your mind,
But I know I've lost your love.

Will I ever feel any better,
With days when I don't cry?
No matter what, it's time to say
Goodbye, Trever , goodbye.

It's just me and my thoughts now,
And I'm sitting here alone.

I'll try to carry on
Or at least I'll try to exist.
Until one day you reach for me,
And guide me into death's mist.

How long will I feel so empty,
Will this heartache ever end?
How long will I have to wait,
Until we meet in Heaven, my dear cousin?

I wasn't finished with my "I love yous,"
I had a million more to go. I wanted you to know.

That I'm not ready to let you go
Off into that brilliant light.
I'd rather have kept you here with me,
And hung on with all my might.

But it's too late, death has stolen you away
And there's nothing left I can do.

Did you know how much I love you
Before you had to pass?
If we only had more time,
I wouldn't have to ask.

Death snatched you away,
And I must bear my shame.
I can say I love you in my heart,
But it's just not the same.

My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news.
It never occurred to me how much I could lose.
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real.
Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel.

Cousin. You were a big brother to me.

Your beautiful memories, kind words,

deeds and love will guide me whenever I feel lost. 

Will I ever feel any better,
With days when I don't cry?
No matter what, it's time to say
Goodbye, Trever , goodbye.