Recharge

When I shut myself in my room,

It is not because I don't want to engage - I do.

My energy just drains too quickly;

It is a rechargeable battery that doesn't hold its charge and lasts longest when I am alone.

Certain circumstances have damaged the charge capacity;

People, traumatic events and trying to understand the reasons behind it all have weakened the cells in the battery, limiting how much energy I could spend.

And for me,

The only way to recharge was by disconnecting with the world and everyone in it,

By creating a physical barrier between the two.

It was by closing that door and doing what I enjoyed.

So, if you come to my home and see that door closed,

Just know I am recharging.