I kind of missed the kdramas
Of course, they’re not real and things like that never happen
But I still yearn for my little kdrama moment
It’s just that all those movies make you feel love
And yeah, most of the times it is cringe
But there’s a reason that they’re so popular with people of my age
We desire love
We desire feeling love
We desire being loved
These dramas make us feel that kind of way
I don’t know how, but somehow, they do
Kdramas seem so pink, so flowery, so beautiful
Then I switch back to my own real life
all I see is pain, misery, a feeling that I cannot describe
It’s like you can't live with it
You can't be close to it
You just want to go away
As far as you can
You would do anything to make it stop
Even if that means to die
I think love would make that feeling go away
I’m not sure though
Because I’ve never experienced real love
Except for maybe one time when I had feelings for a guy at my workplace
After I found out he quit his job, I was miserable
I kept crying nonstop for three whole days
I was miserable for months
Anyways, it was unrequited love
I think…
So, it definitely did not make that horrible feeling go away
But if I look at my personal life
And I search for people that are maybe capable of loving me
Just a little bit
I get disgusted
I don’t know why
I don’t want to feel that way
But I do.
It’s like I can only like or love people that don’t love me
It’s strange
I don’t want to feel that way
But I do.
And I can’t do shit about it.
- Author: nabi (Pseudonym) ( Offline)
- Published: May 25th, 2023 14:34
- Category: Love
- Views: 2
Comments1
(proximity blurs reality,
at a distance
everything seems that much more
desirable..)
a wonderful read, thanks for sharing
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