Oblivion

Drifted by world barriers
Drowning in pain and boiling tears
Do u even see deep in our eyes
Or try to read between the lines

The gaps need to be filled
Not with assumptions that thrill
Facts and figures you should seek
Instead of pushing us to the peak

We feel, you know
We dream, solo
But why u gotta be so far?
So opposite? So hard?

Why can't u understand?
It's not me, trouble's in your plan
Anything wrong? Probably my fault
Grades or moods and even assault

It cracks every time you misunderstand 
And that deepens every time these thoughts creep in
For you it's once, for me, it haunts
You'd know if you had one, it's called a 'heart'

Are you hearing yourself? Are you even thinking?
Where this leads or is just sinking

I may have anxiety, maybe even depression
But u listen to society, not my damn question
Yes I'm insecure, I'm scared of attention 
But u need grades, u need pride
Not my joy, not even the dark side

You don't know what goes on
These screams and voices, they don't stop
Kill me brutally till I'm gone
It won't hurt as much as this mind I've got

If I speak up, I'm wrong
If I don't, I ain't strong
If I stay, I'm lazy
If I don't, carelessly crazy

What do you want? 
What can I do?
Sure you know best
But u don't have a clue

Didn't try to understand
How many dreams you crushed
How this overwhelming feeling we can't stand
Want to scream but we hush

We drown it, we hide
We let it kill us, inside
You won't know, you can't 
Cuz u made the distance

You are the oblivion 
You are the cause
U love me, I do too
But y'all ain't always the boss

Please see me, the real me
Stop deceiving, believe me
I want peace mentally 
Or this oblivion will perish me...