Mine gerund farming, tilling, and harvesting illogical weltanschauung

Twas accursed destiny

since birth (maybe coded in

deoxyribonucleic acid
since time immemorial) alas and alack

nascent emasculation abominable barrack

emergent deus ex machina,
one common Joe biden his time

for no particular
rhyme nor reason
revisiting mine days of yore,

when protectiveness courtesy
older sibling come

from behind ruthless counterattack.

All equivocation aside,

she/her thirteen plus months
and twelve days
constituted chronological senior gap

eldest sister struck like diamondback

against bullies who targeted me
as a poor defenseless “scape goat”

surrogate "mother" role

assumed tubby exact

protectorate viz pseudo fullback

against cruel foo fighting beastie boys

hurling black barbs
firing verbal slings and arrows.

Escapist exploits to cope
being brutalized, and traumatized
synonymous when Brian Williams,
(not the newscaster,

but neighborhood school chum,

who shared same namesake)

we imagined ourselves

courageous dauntless explorers

while toying with his beebee gun.

Mein kampf one after another
against relentless barrage of flak
comeuppance effected giveback

pummeling spongiform mine

now sixty plus shades gray matter
fisticuffs sister didst highjack

proxy mated mothering

kept corporeal essence intact

jilting nefarious nemesis aligned

jumpstarting, maligning, and stalking.

This fee-fi-fo-fum
bling ordinary bean sized Jack

err runt (arrant) cowardly

(fee lion) dorky and nerdy lad

owning nada knick knack
paddy whack give my dog a bone

a fide scaredy cat,

he/him an aging baby boomer

older married chap doth adumbrate

satisfactory accomplishments lack

king, where crazy

quilt aimless wandering

described purposeless multitrack

thus, sympathetic, and empathetic

to hue men/women nonblack

or decimated aborigines

once populating Australian outback

existential nihilism would,

undergirding hypothetical

unwritten paperback
with little need to prevaricate,

nor appear as quack

pot, one measly Homo sapiens,

who accrued millennial

palimpsest gestalt zeitgeist
where, punctured, and zapped

disequilibrium created

psyche dust rack

asper protean (in utero)

multitudinous setback

soundlessly resonating

with concussive thwack

as this rickety ship of state

(never confused as fêted junket)

unwanted emotional ballast to unpack
asseveration, asper assiduously

preferably welcoming
dry suction no vac

jarring this pawn (knight wannabe

in his bishop rick) torrid

me psychological wrack

king within (castle keep)

complex edifice shackled

in dungeon with repast constituting
present day long winded conversations,
where she volubly talk yakety yak.