What Ifs

It's 11:28 in the evening
Here I am still thinking
Problem here, problem there
Maybe problems are my forever

Now, my life seems so messy
It's tough and not easy
Full of what if's
In so many things, I did regrets

What if I did that thing?
What if I've said it in perfect timing?
What if I can change everything?
Can I fix all of those wretched living?

Yes...my life may be  full of rue
I am aware of it and that was true
But I'm here, still hoping and praying 
Wishing to live freely, where there will be  and no more deploring