In mental pain. (loop poem)

In mental pain

why in ever so week, i cant breathe

but i can, i cant sleep

but i can

are you tricking me

at another part, im in a different land

is this place real, is there a plan

against me?

i feel unstoppablle, some days

it feels impossible, some days

it used to make me feel like im dying

it still does, to this day

how have i made it through, i dont know

the fearr of relaxation takes over, as i BREATHE

CLOSING MY EYES, I WEEP, WHY CANT I

stop.

you're making your panic disorder worse.

close your eyes and ignore the cries of agony, at work.

i will save you, just trust me.

BUT! the hole is getting bigger and i feel the tide

it pulls me in, taking my energy, 'til i have

nothing.

but what i had right where i started.