Carry On

Lately it feels as if everything around me is falling apart,

That I keep reliving the same moments over and over, not knowing how to follow my heart.

I keep it together, and have a smile on my face when others are around,

But no one knows that at the end of the day, I fall apart as I sit there crying on the ground.

I am tired of feeling this way, especially because of some people in my life who could not care less,

And they want to see me this way, and they are happy that my life is currently a mess.

I have pulled myself out of this so many times before, and I will do it again,

Because I am never going back to how things used to be back then.

Even though it gets tough to have to keep overcoming this so many times,

It gets a little easier to deal with each and every time, because of the strength that currently resides in my mind.

I can't keep letting the lack of love from others affect how I feel,

Because I know it may be small, but at least there are some people in my life who are real.

I am changing things starting today, because I can't do this anymore,

And I am tired of letting others control my life, and decide whether to open and shut the opportunities that lie beyond every door.

This time, I am taking back control and this time I will succeed,

Because I am the only person that I will ever need. 

I am giving myself the next 85 days to become the best version of me,

And I am finally going to become the person that I have always wanted to be.

I don't care if it is not what others want, and I don't care about the people who want to see me fail,

Because I am the only one who needs to be able to tell my tale.