IS IT LOVE?

*IS IT LOVE OR INFATUATION?* 

Do you really know how much I miss you?  Every time I think of a happy moment ,you just pop out of my mind.
 I can't control how I feel for you. It's all like in a Dreamland .
 I don't know when will this stop but even the bigger question is not even when; it's how.

 The last few months when we've been together in school I may have fallen in love with you but couldn't tell you because ,the real meaning of love is what perplexes me. Does love care? Is love worth fighting for? The answers to the questions I do not have.

Today I write this letter not expecting the same from you but hopefully waiting for a reply. This writing doesn't change my position as your friend and never will it change.
It's just that I want to tell you what I feel and speak my mind rather than leave and see it burn and tear me apart from inside. 

You keep on saying,“Love ain't everything but I believe friendship is more tangible than love". But I tell you today that I wish we could swap our places so that you can feel how horrible it is to understand the statement. Can one not show act of friendship and love at the same time? 

It is terrible to fall in love with the person who has fallen for another person. It's like you got options to make it right but there's only this person making it harder for you to make a move, and that's you.The sole position I'm in now do not define who really I want and what I need to do. I'm left wondering on what to do next hence in this subject of love ,I'm left wandering.

By Kirwa V.