The Pit

You blame me for being done with you

But you already decided you were done with me

I can't watch you fall apart

Inside your pit of self pity

Misery lurks in the darkness

Despair is in the air

There are dozens of hands reaching

To pull you out.

All you have to do is reach back

But that means change

Change brings discomfort

And you've found comfort in your pit

You think if the hands really wanted to help

They should be down their with you.

No one wants to live down there

And you mistake that for "they don't care"

I lived in that pit with you

I felt enough misery for two

And to obey your demands

I didn't reach for the hands

But I couldn't take all the tears

All the disappointment, pain, and the fears

All those wasted years

When the hands became scarce

I knew i had to take the chance

Before it got worse.

So much time went by

Before seeing another

I thought it too late

But there it was

I couldn't let YOU be my fate

No longer could I wait

I reached out

There was more darkness on the way up

But the light shined upon my face

I hoped you'd grab on

And we would make it to the top together

But that was not the case

I looked back to find you at the bottom

I know everyone has their own pace

But you have to move to have one

But I couldn't let my son

Be born in the same pit I was

So I continue to climb

I might not ever make it to the very top

But my son will never know the same darkness I've known

I climb so that maybe he can make it to the top

And if not him, maybe his future offspring

But you couldn't do the same for me

You wanted someone to share the pit

Where you continue to sit.