You Got This

It has taken me a long time to finally give myself the credit for all that I have over come,

Because there are a lot of people who don't know my full story or where I come from.

Despite the fact that things feel like they are falling apart more and more everyday,

I am finally realizing that that is part of my story, and it is supposed to be that way.

I am not saying I am perfect, I know that I am far from it,

But I do need to give myself more credit that no matter how hard it gets, I never quit.

In the past, there have been so many things that I thought I would never be able to do,

But I was able to stand tall in the end, and I was able to finish everything through.

Even thought this is going to be a tough journey, I know that it is just another thing that I will achieve,

Because the old me is in the past, and it is not a part of me that I am going to grieve.

I am finally ready to start fresh and go after the life that I know I deserve,

And the only reason I have not done it in the past was because I could never work up the nerve.

The nerve to finally admit the fact that I deserve so much better than what I am giving to myself,

And the fact that I can do it, without the help of anyone else.

I tried so hard to make it work, and I feel like an idiot for giving you the best of me for the past three years,

But I am no longer going to sit here, filled with all of your doubts and fears. 

That maybe this whole time it wasn't that you were too good for me, but it was in fact the other way around,

And the final straw was when I tried to reach out to you for help, but instead, you just watched me drown.

At this point, I don't even want it to work out anymore between you and I,

Because instead of healing me and making me smile, half of the time, you were the reason that I would cry.

Instead of giving that satisfaction of seeing me as a mess, I decided to change the narrative and turn the story around,

Because I am determined to start living my life, and pick myself up off of the ground.

And I know it won't be easy, but I just need to take it one step at a time,

And everything that I have dreamed of will finally be mine.

When you see me in two months, I will not be in the spot where you left me,

Because I am taking back my life, and becoming the person that I have always wanted to be.