A Girl Shout

I draw so many happy faces

So sad there is just glumness on my face

But when someone comes around

It is so easy to replace

Am I moving or it is an empty carcase?

It is just the last breath of a death soul

That never had the self-control

To get out of this black hole

What if I told you,

My best company is my own reflection on the mirror,

And the worst judges,

The eyes beyond,

That get closed to see,

What i choose to ignore.

Scars, vomits, bruises

Are this girls fee,

The silent shouts of her soul

That wants to get free.

I can see this little girl trying to scream,

Sticking all the broken pieces

Of that sick mind without self-esteem.

I don't listen to sad music anymore

I'm already convinced that it is the end of the fall,

I let my memories live through their melodies,

While I'm crying on the floor

Just wanting to make that call

To tell my mom i lost this war.